Faith that is Real

Two posts in one day.... hope this doesn't become a habit. :D

I have this thought I want to convey. It goes along with some of the earlier posts in this past couple of weeks. We've talked about our Story. A very huge part of my story is my faith. My spirituality is a large part of what makes up who I am. I grew up in the church since I was 6 years old. In alot of cases, I am very thankful for that. In other ways, I tend to think about the disadvantage that can be. By that, I mean that there are alot of hangups that I have to get passed. There are alot of religious ways and religious thinking that can keep alot of people at bay.

My thought that I have tonight is that I want my faith to be real. I want my faith to be genuine. I want my faith to be something that doesn't intimidate people. I want my faith to be accessible if people want to take the time to explore. I want people to find my faith a little bit mysterious. I want people to look at me and wonder about what I believe.

Reality is this: I struggle. Christians aren't supposed to struggle...or so we're taught. If we don't admit the struggle then how on earth are we going to be able to reach out to the world who does struggle?

Reality is this: I have an emotional roller coaster. Christians aren't supposed to admit that they struggle with their emtions. Most people do struggle with emotions. If I let people know that, mayybe it will help them better understand the war that goes on in their emotions.

Reality is this: I struggle to trust. Christians are supposed to simply trust. However, trust isn't easy or come natural for most of us.

I want people to be able to say: this guy is spiritual yet non-threatening. This guy is spiritual without being religious. This guy is spiritual without the baggage of always having the trite answer.

I hope people will ultimately say: This guy is spiritual and his faith is real.